Sensitivity

Hiya friends! This topic of sensitivity really hits home in a whole lot of different ways. I had some friends in my life when I was younger that were incredibly hurtful in their words as well their actions toward me. They often called me too sensitive and emotional when I tried to defend myself or express how I felt about the way they treated me so I quickly started to just listen and not speak up for myself because it wasn't worth the frustration. The only problem with this is that I began building up walls and never really felt as if I could depend or trust anyone fully because I understood that at some point or another they would let me down. But what I now realize is that if I have those expectations then my heart will only continue to be hard and sheltered. From the past couple of days in the devotional I'm really understanding how many walls need to be torn down in order to allow those who want to pursue a relationship and deep friendships into my life. I first must commit myself to a good relationship with Christ in order to know what a good and healthy relationship should look like. I'm beginning to feel much more confident in who I am because I'm learning more about who Christ made me to be.